Depressed, angry, regretful, hurt, blank...suicide needed.

My emotions have run wild, now im no sure what to think anymore. See my problem is this: I created a situation where there are many paths i could take, so many outcomes; however, one destiny. The reason why i created this situation. No one knows (well now you will find out)but the reason i created this hurtful, full of emotional situation is because i need to know what i want, what i need, what i love, what will make me happy and most of all what will keep me being me. Well technically thats just like 1/8th of my reason. The other parts... are unknown. To you, to life, to me.

"Konke kwenzeka nga umsuka," A saying said, by many. In all different countries. This in zulu, it means. "Everything happens for a reason." Why do i say this, because it does. Por que? It does, will do and forever be. One destiny, many paths, so many choices. Im at a fork in the flippin road right now, and i got limited time before i get eating by life, thats right on my tail. 4 choises, 2 paths and only one person. Me (not including people within choise here.)

-- All im saying is, choises are made. These choices shape who you are, no matter your destiny. And shaping you is the hardest thing you will ever do. In order to be you to the fullest; hearts will be broken, tears will shead, pain will be present and most of all love will conquer all. The question is are you going to let logic and your brain win. Or your heart, that knows neither right or wrong when it comes to being you and the love we seek?. Love is what we are after, but how the fuck are we going to get it.

The biggest problem for me right now is, what the hell am i going to do now. Stupid fork in the road.


-- Yeah my lil wonder rant. Enjoy, i needed to blow off steam. --

Asuukama FTW (fuck the world) *Wants to be kill*

[link] ---> Hurt by Jonny Cash " What i cry to...This hold more meaning then you will ever understand."



((((((( I wrote this randomly, sorry if its weird, fucked up, makes no sense, or anything. Im confused right now. )))))))